Wednesdays.

Wednesdays, coffee morning. 

I'm going to premise this with, I'm an atheist, my Son however is an active member of a local church, he was introduced by who would have been my in-laws, things don't always turn out quite how you imagine but we're all still very close.

Anyway, Anne, the nearly mother in law and one of loveliest humans I've ever had the privilege of coming across, very coyly asked if I would like to come to a coffee morning they do at the church, Coy because she was worried about the fact it was set in a church and didn't want me to think she was trying to indoctrinate me. 

She explained it was a none religious thing but someone for would speak about half way through for a couple of minutes which would touch on some religious subjects, anyone could attend, and each table had different activities, games, knitting, jigsaws and painting.

Painting, an interest that fluctuated through the years but had recently become pretty much everything, life was quite messy, I was fairly isolated, I knew I needed something, needed to put myself out there more, needed to be more socialised and so I did.

knowing I'd have Anne to cushion the fear and awkwardness of meeting new people and painting, made the the prospect easier to tangle with, meeting those people made it even more so.

I have met the most wonderful people and painted things I wouldn't ordinarily, I get to chat art of different mediums and chat life, of different mediums.

I find it incomprehensible this part of my life hasn't even had a mention, this was my toe dip, pre art decisions, pre-HIVE, it readied me, the people readied me, filled me with confidence and courage, inspired me and pushed me, treat me with kindness and acceptance regardless of differing beliefs.

Generally, the wonderful, talented, Angie, will have brought an idea, will talk us through how she did it and set us free, whilst giving tips and sharing ideas along the way, watching each person create, brings me so much joy, the self deprecation, shared and fairly humorous but each painting bringing their own style and story, the talent in that place is bewildering, I think I might try and convince all the arty ones to do an exhibit for some funds for the church or something, A collab of the coffee morning creators...... not a bad name either.....Hmmm.

A light shines, it spreads, a path was made, some might call that god, I personally call it Humanity, beautiful, fallible, magical, humanity.

Grateful for another pocket, cheers me dears!

Thankyou for reading my gobbledygook.

forever chaotic,

Zoe Siobhan.